totally random

From the mouth of my adorable 3 year old, Lil Miss C...

Corn-a-ma-cob, corn-a-ma-cob!!! Yaaay! I loooooove corn-a-ma-cob!

Translation...

Corn on the cob, corn on the cob!!! Yaaay! I loooooove corn on the cob!

How cute is that?! I guess I'm easily amused!

I know, totally random but I just couldn't resist sharing :)

Hello, my name is Connie!

Where does the time go??? I feel like a stranger, reintroducing myself to the friends who gave me hope and a good dose of daily sanity and that comforting sense of "same". I promise, you have not been forgotten...my life took a turn towards the crazy train for awhile and I just felt like I couldn't keep my head above the water.

I know that most of the stress and the reoccurring sense of being completely overwhelmed were slightly self-induced. I'm really good at over analyzing, over stressing and just plain being a worry wart! Not a good place to be when you have two kiddos with type 1 diabetes depending on their mama to keep it together.

So......I took a break from my on-line daily stalking of my favorite blogs ;) I also took a break from my blog and spent the summer reading books that have been on my wish list forever, playing, resting and trying to keep my sanity in check :) No worries, I didn't take a break from diabetes...unfortunately diabetes doesn't go on vacation! But I just had to disconnect for awhile, I think my brain cells are thanking me but I feel so out of the loop it's ridiculous!

Some quick updates, Miss E is now officially a first grader! She is about 3 weeks into the school year and it wasn't a smooth transition. She really has struggled with adjusting to the demands of school again, I know she just needs time to get comfortable and back into the swing of things. In good time.

Lil Miss C is growing like a weed...I can hardly believe that she is almost 2 1/2 years into this diabetes life and she isn't even 4 yet! Blaaah! That bothers me something fierce. Oh man, what a crazy life this little one has lived in her short years, thousands of shots, thousands of finger pokes, highs, lows and everything in-between.

Good news on the pumping for Miss E...we have decided to put her on the Animas pump! She is still on shots right now, but we are in the process of getting the pump and all the training needed to make it happen. Very exciting and scary all at the same time. I will update you as we go along this new journey. Wish us luck and I hope that all has been well with my fellow diabetes on-line community! I will spend the next week trying to catch up on all the posts that have sat unread due to my mini vacation.

Take care my friends! Until next time :)

Before I Was a Mom...

Before I Was a Mom

I never tripped on toys

or forgot words to a lullaby.

I didn't worry whether or not

my plants were poisonous.

I never thought about immunizations

Before I was a Mom

I had never been puked on.

pooped on.

chewed on.

peed on.

I had complete control of my mind

and my thoughts.

I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom

I never held down a screaming child

so doctors could do tests.

Or give shots.

I never looked into teary eyes and cried.

I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.

I never sat up late hours at night

watching a baby sleep.

Before I Was a Mom

I never held a sleeping baby just because

I didn't want to put her down.

I never felt my heart break into a million pieces

when I couldn't stop the hurt.

I never knew that something so small

could affect my life so much.

I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a mom.

Before I Was a Mom

I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body...

I didn't know how special it could feel

to feed a hungry baby.

I didn't know the bond between a mother and her child.

I didn't know that something so small

could make me feels so important and happy.

Before I Was a Mom

I had never gotten up in the middle of the night

every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.

I had never known the warmth,

the joy,

the love,

the heartache,

the wonderment

or the satisfaction of being a mom.

I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much,

before I was a mom.

May you always be overwhelmed by the Grace of God rather than by the cares of life.

I received this beautiful poem from a fellow d-mom that I know in "real life"...I don't know who the poem is by but I do know that it is beautiful and speaks a language I know well...a language of love and understanding and of the joys and struggles of being a parent. Being a mom is a blessing, it has brought with it so many emotions and although my journey the last few years has been difficult at times...I wouldn't trade it for anything.

To all the moms out there, may your day be blessed and let us celebrate the joys of being a mom everyday.

A Long Overdue Update!!!

A HUGELY overdue update...I am so, so, soooo out of the loop when it comes to the DOC...YIKES...I can't believe it's been over 2 months!!! *hanging head down in shame*

Well, life's been super busy. Can't complain though...we got a new nurse! She's fantastic and Miss E has really started to find her groove again and is very comfortable with her. I have to say, being without a full time nurse was a real eye-opener. We went through a tough spot for awhile but have come out the other end with more confidence and some added wisdom when it comes to managing d in school.

I took both my girls to their Endo last week, I always stress out over that...usually worried about A1C's and all that stuff. I'm happy to say that Miss E and Lil Miss C are doing great! Their doctor was very happy, the girls are growing like crazy and their A1C's were good. We have seen a trend though with Miss E lately in her night time bg's...she has been having a lot of highs, some nights she'll go to bed in the low to mid 100's and a few hours later she's in the high 200's. Last night before bed her bg was 156, 3 hours later it was 299 and that's with her only having a protein snack before bed! I thought that the reading was wrong so I retested and it was 309, I did a correction and set my alarm for a few hours later and her bg had went down to 178...good...two and half hours later it was up to 218! Yes, a mystery for sure. I didn't correct because she still had active insulin in her system and when she woke up for school...248!

This is a new trend for us, Miss E runs high all night and Lil Miss C has been having great overnight numbers with an occasional low bg in the mornings. So needless to say, it's been pretty frustrating. We're now looking into possibly pumping, her endo thinks that this would be our best bet to get better control over those overnight highs. So...a brand new beginning!!! PUMPING!!! Just the thought of it sends a million different emotions running through me, I know that anything new can seem scary, I do have a lot to learn so don't be surprised if I start throwing out 101 questions to all my DOC pumping pros!